Basic of understanding and empathy

There are 5 kind of thinking to understand it deep and right.

1. To understand it in a kind, innocent, and sympathy thinking.. This is gained by normal healthy life.

2. To understand it in an evil, grudge, and greed thinking. This is gained when we are fully controlled by our own emotions.

3. To understand it with wild behaviour, instinct and lust, which are natural by our own nature. This is depend on ourselve to understand and accept ourselves.

4. To understand it with knowledge, facts, and analysis. Graded by level of understanding and connection on the them. This is easily seen and seek, but for understanding is dependent on the genius level.

5. To understand it with dreams, abnormal phenomenon but understood as it is, and fears. This is hard to find and hard to be seen.

The connection with seen, unseen and souls are with the following 3 things.

1. The strong feeling that shivered the heart and the skin. Usually something or someone so important. Usually good to follow this.

2. The thinking that suddenly talk to our mind. Sometimes it was actually the other soul whispering to us. Either dead or alive, satan or angel, or any kind of soul.

3. The feel, used to, and awkwardness when in contact. Can be read better on the nature's eyes.

It all depends to ourselves to achieve.

Restart

Now I have my own new life. With a great wife. Great job. And potential business opportunities.

I move on. No more past. No more rubbish people. I need to stay away from rubbish.

My only problem is, I don't have the motivation to do business.

I am having great motivation to go gym and play games. Mobile Legend and Fitness First, o yeah~


Business to do :

1. Needweb project system management

2. Once done, doing the Department members schedule management

Than only I can continue taking client's business to manage easier, and have an easier staff management at the office.

I am being too lazy. Too spoiled. I need to wake up. Time is running. Time is running. I gonna get old.


I want to do all I can do. My worth over the world.

The Walking Dead

What's amazing right now is, I'm still here breathing and alive.... after so many shits hit me.



Right now I'm not sure what to do with my life.


I really hate to start it all over. Everything destroyed and fall apart.


Sometimes I wonder. What should I really do right now.



Again, I feel dead.




My brain stopped and my sights see nothing.



I know my strength and weakness.


I just, don't know what I want anymore.

Diary of Today

I have to accept who I am. I'm too kind, until it kills me a lot. Sometimes I hate myself so much. Why I too care about other people?

It's because of how I grow. I lived alone too much, and been through a lot of shiits in my life. That is how I start value people, and dream of bringing my family together.






I dreamt to be the best *** until global level, and it came true. I be the person I want.

I also dream of doing these certain things if I got rich, as the following.

1. Have own house
2. Have own land
3. Have own car
4. Bring family together
5. Help mama and brothers

And amazingly, it came true.


I dreamt of meeting a lover of my life, to build a happy family together and live happily ever after. Well I am working on it.


I just met my lover this year. She is amazing. We have a lot in common. As the following.

1. We used to write uppercase-lowercase mixture for every alphabet in words, long ago
2. We get sleepy if we drink coffee
3. Our look is really same in front of most people's eyes
4. We have the same attitude and sacrifices history with our ex
5. We really care and help our own family so much
6. We are stable and ready


It was never that easy. All these achievements start with a lot of pain and pain. And pain. And pain pain pain pain pain...with a lot of impossibilities and lost of hope. With a lot of anger, madness, feeling down, sadness, all that. I am never that strong. I am forced to keep on going with my life, with all i have.

It will be painful and meaningless to suicide. We will keep breathing. And just live on, even when we see nothing next.


Sometimes, I wonder how all of this happened. Is my pasts really true and happened? It is just too amazing and weird on how I get here. Anything can happen. Until I don't know what's impossible anymore. Life is really unpredictable and always happened in a way, out of our own control.


Life is really, always up and down.




The best way to live, is to forgive, and keep giving kindness to other people. Keep living in a good way. Avoid being selfish and greed. Then we wont regret for everything we had done before we leave this world.



I am already happy for what i have left for my family and friends. I will keep living the way I want. Giving and forgiving. Just a matter of time to leave this world. Im happy enough for what I am and what I have done.



Peace and feel meaningful to live and die. is the best thing I can think of for my life :)