What Are U Chasing?

Okay. I would like to share. We always chase something we want fanatically until we get it. But, what do u get? and is it really what u want? At the end?

I have chased certain things in my life. Well, just to share the period of experiences i have based on what i chase.

1. Game. When we get the game, we play and play until finish. If it is about competing with other players, we keep trying to be the best. Beat the bot, or friends. Be the best. Then, that's all? Get the list of credits, or feel so great and satisfied that we are the best player. That's all. Then the game we played was nothing anymore.

And to be the best player, we always put full focus on it. We are gone with our own world with the game. Realistically, we are nothing. Just the best game player of the game only. After one or two years, the game was nothing. All i can say here is, i feel wasted to keep playing game. But i am a freak game player.

2. Exam. Of course we try the best we could to get the best result. When get good result, we will feel great and happy. But is it even worth to get perfect result? To get the perfect result, we will always have to struggle a lot and being so hardworking and avoid many distractions.

If we finally end up being a top scorer, but non-social and not accepted to work for being inactive in curriculum...it will be very sad. All the hardwork that might naturally make us nonsocial and inactive, and finally no job and so lonely? That's the risk that is so, so sad.

Life is just about we do things what we want and like. Realistically and practically. We can know how to use a phone without knowing what's the name of every button and component in the chip.

Just because examinator have to ask questions, they might have no idea and ask silly question. They might not even know a thing about the subject. They can just open the book randomly and select the page as the question. That is why sometimes same question pop up every year.

3. Famous. There might be many kind of reason why we wanna be famous. For me, i just want good friends. At first, i thought i want to be open and mix any kind of friend. Finally, i found out how important it is to choose friend carefully. What we gonna be depends on who we mix with. Besides that, we might lose our identity because of many kinds of friends we mix. Look who has become opposite gender. That's one of the risk of being mixedful.

People with good idea only good at their idea. Not because of the way they talk or styling. People that done respectful things are only respectful at that time. They can easily gone in just a second. Who we are yesterday is because of who we are yesterday, not today.

4. Love. Yes, almost anyone would want to have a great couple. To have a romantic date, talk sweetly and romatically to each other all that. Even hold hands, be together all time. And even willing to sacrifice to be with love. The great of love was like will never end.

That love playing was not actually seems right. We always found better person around. And we want them, isn't it? And we want all of them. We always like different people. From there, we might actually wonder what would love actually means. All the people's philosophies and movies that convinced us might not be true, isn't it? It's just like a creation of fantasy that have influenced us.

However, to build a good happy family, we have to choose only one.

5. Food. Yes, we always want food. That's a must. For me, as i have explored, no matter how much we eat, the most important thing is the taste. The better the test, the less the food we need to be full.

When i eat a fried rice by the street, it's not tasty. I have eaten three plates but still, i feel hungry but my stomach was full. Funny isn't it? If the food is tasteless, no matter how much we eat, we will still hungry.

When i eat a very tasty noodle at the very expensive hotel cafe, i just eat three spoons, and poof...i feel so full eventhough my stomach is not. That might be one of the secret way to diet. Eat a very tasty food to keep us eat less.

Another best way of eating is eat the food that we smell when we are hungry. That will be so satisfying =D

6. Sleep. We always want to sleep a lot. There are times that i feel like sleeping 20 hours a day. It was during holiday. It's kinda fun. But actually, after long doing that, i feel so useless and not productive. And that is why i will just stop sleeping when i know that i have enough.

7. Comics. Yes, i like comics so much. I have spent almost thousands of ringgit just to buy comics. There's once i spent almost RM200 a month just to buy comics. It gives me great fantasy. I really like it so much.

But i really stressful when lack of money. Sometimes just because of comics i suffered from enough money of eating. Fom there, i stop buying comics just because of money.

If i am rich, i might have bought comics as much as RM2000 a month =P

8. Programming. Yes, i love programming. Sometimes, two days have passed latter i realized that i haven't eat at all. Everytime i achieved something in programming, the happiness i gained is too hard to explain. It's simply so great =D

However, there should be a period of rest everytime do programming. If not, i can end up being mentally disorder. That's the risk i must remember all the time.

9. Organizational. If we just want to learn and find out how it is being in an organization, it is okay to try. How much we learn is depend on how good is the organization. Either being a director, secretary, or any other positions.

For me, it's the best to join the organization that we are interested. It's the best if having the organization with friends. It will be the best experience ever =)

If simply join organization just like that and simply join activities and take orders of tasks, it will simply make me feel like, "It has nothing to do with me. I shouldn't be here".



There are more actually, but i'm sleepy already. Good night my little bloggy =)